I’ve been clean for exactly 176 days now. I first decided to join the Peer Mentor course when I arrived in Belmarsh in February 2014 and thought it seemed like a good way to stay focused. I can honestly say that it was one of the best decisions I’ve ever made.
I first started using when I was 11. It was mostly solvents and gas at first, then cannabis and finally crack cocaine, which made me feel invincible. When I look back now, I can see I was trying to escape from the guilt I felt from not being able to protect myself and my sisters from our abuser.
When I was committing crime I didn’t care who I hurt or what I stole, all I cared about was getting high. The sentence I’m serving now, which I’ve been serving since 2006, was for attacking a man on the tube who very nearly died. Afterwards I still didn’t really acknowledge what I’d done because all I could think about was my next fix. Now I see that my behaviour was unforgiveable.
Graduating from the peer mentor course feels like a huge achievement but it’s also just the first step on the ladder. I’d really like to work in the substance misuse sector on my release, as I really enjoy helping others and I find that supporting others in their recovery actually helps me to stay clean too.
I’m currently halfway through a business qualification with the Open University and I hope to one day get my health and social care diploma. If I can stop just one person throwing away the majority of their life like I did, then I can work with that.
I talk more often and more openly to my family now and I feel so much happier within myself. I think I’ve truly found my calling here and, I’d just like to say - to Change Grow Live (CGL) and the guys at Belmarsh - thank you for this opportunity and I won’t let you down.
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